time zone mind gone

I am a little hungover, nothing a nuerofren won't solve. Last night was gorgeous, walked along the riverside in Richmond to a local pub with my Uncle and Aunt. Drank two pints of Peroni, some Rose wine- was gloriously drunk and probably spilled out a lot of secrets i shouldn't have.
Mind is messed up due to personal reasons- maybe when i look back at this diary a few years later i won't remember why I am so upset. But I am, ok this is a reminder for the future- i am upset because of a certain email i received in my inbox this morning from a certain someone who i don't like very much anymore.
So the time zone makes me wake up at 4.30 am every morning which is a real piss off because i feel tired all day long then. Going to college now - have to start work on market report- i'm super late -and scared to fail it!

I like reading old letters and get all nostalgic, found one from my first love in my first hotmail account- here's some of what what he wrote -

In short I am a fool to not have stayed with you. I had everything. I really love you and miss being with you. I am not even sure what is going on in your life. But I needed to say this to you. I want you back in my life and this time I am not letting you go. In fact I sat and wrote down all the things about you and there are so many things I have taken for granted. So many things...

Well obviously you know what happened next- I said no and to this day I wake up thinking if it was the biggest mistake of my life. That if i had said a yes to this email, how different would my life be now?

I wouldn't be here blogging in London for one or with the job at Vogue- and i feel like getting all philosophical here because thats whats blogs are for - and sometimes I like feeling bad - for the sake of feeling bad. So now it is 8.48 am and I have obviously not had a fantastic morning.

Still no positive flat hunt. Its like the whole universe is conspiring against me! And this ones true too- when one part of your life is going good it is for sure that everything else will fall gloriously apart.
Oh whats good? i have a possible job at the fashion bible

I am listening to Amy Winehouse- love her new album - download it for free now now now.